Day 4: Christmas?? better life starting ahead..:))

why is it always take me ages to upload a picture on blogger??!! im getting sick of these...in fact im getting sick of most of the things around me. oh well it's been raining since this morning...i guess im just a little depressed by the wet weather. i barely remember when was the last time i lied on my bed doing nothing at all...with no lights on, no one's around me, no music, no sounds...sshhhh!! yes i do enjoy being on my own...but somehow i cant manage to switch off the engine of my mind! how do you stop your thoughts and still stay awake at the same times?? MEDITATE??! hhmmmm...it might works. i really need something better in life...