shh...this is one happy secret of mine that some of you already know

with so many good friends, im running out of secret to tell...gradually.

在這裡，我一個人。。。

十五個月來，我做了一些事，一些我以前都好像不會或沒有機會做的事。還記得我第一次從這個遠方打電話回家時已經是我離家一個星期了，想問曾經到國外生活的朋友，你們是隔了多久才打回家的呢？我那時很想家，即便是住在阿姨家，有親表弟妹陪，心裡還是空空的。那種感覺，稱不上是孤獨，也不像孤單，是空虛嗎？心情複雜的是。。。


剛到這個‘鬼’地方時，不！應該是說在飛機降落的十分鐘前，我是超興奮的！！（雖然上機前的三十分鐘我是哭到一個不行！）到過英國的人都懂，倫敦真的很正！！在飛機上看見的倫敦尤其地美麗，壯觀。很後悔那時後並沒有拍下來，那景觀還深深的烙在我腦裡，那一刻，我不敢相信我人真的來到了這裡。。。好像不太真實咧。一個星期很快的就過了，我還未講完的複雜是 - 我開始因為無所事事而胡思亂想了，覺得我的夢想一直都是停留在幻想階段，我根本就還沒準備好，興奮期待的心情頓時不在了。想家到頂時，我還試過躲到廁所哭個十分鐘，爛透了！！

相比現在的我，比從前勇敢和獨立了許多，開始習慣一個人生活，想家的機率一天比一天低，低到也不會想打電話回家了。或許這樣子地離家生活真的會讓人長大吧！！我很喜歡現在的生活，沒有從前的工作壓力，不會有等不到公車或捷運的暴躁，還有那躲在屋裡皮膚也會被烘曬到黑的炎熱夏天（每一天！）想留在這裡，可以嗎？？

逛倫敦，Tate Modern。。。
逛布里斯托，Cabot Circus。。。
和自己，就我一個人。

a lovely day with a lovely someone

more than LOVE...

Dear Daddy,

From your forever grateful kid

living under this sky...

Things i spend money on #1

#1 FOOD

{for food, i shop at Tesco. Fruits are a must. apples, grapes, strawberries and blueberries are always in the trolley. as well as soya milk and bran flakes. i snack on Ritz lately, they taste superb with cottage cheese. as you can see i got 4 packs this time (2 for £1.50) they could last about 2 months i guess.}

{i love chocolate drink. Starbucks and Pret A Manger make the best!! this was my first hot chocolate since April, it was a treat.}

{the hot chocolate had the most calories among all these foods on tray. i picked a 130 kcal tuna salad which pretty much fill me up. and a mini baguette!}

Things i spend money on #2

I'M A BiG FAT LiAR!!! I said I'm not gonna spend anymore on clothes, I lied!!!! i just couldn't help it. I'm planning on a tour around UK in August so hoping I'm not gonna spend too much on clothes in the next few months.

#2 Fashions

{Bought too many accessories lately @@}

{Heels are rare in my wardrobe, I'm thinking would I ever wear them? as for summer, new pairs of sandals!}

{I didn't notice all I have are black, brown...brown and black bags!! I got the teal one from London! Love it!!! Wtry to spot for some lighter coloured bag in the future...oppssss!}

{Some shirts I own apart from denim. 4 of them are still new with tags...too little time to wear them all.}

{My wardrobe is a mess. It is so unorganized. It's too small!!! I'm thinking maybe I have more than to wear! Maybe...}

{Left to right: hoodies and jackets - scarves - blazers and cardigans - skirts and shorts -Tshirts and vests - dresses - shirts - bottoms}

Things i spend money on #3

I was so used to standing at the platform waiting for LRT for ages, or waiting for buses which I never know if they are ever existed!! One thing for certain, Malaysian public transport is just a pain!! Those leaders who have got driver driving their big cars would never know how depressing we, the Malaysiana are becoming. Traffic is disaster around city centre as it starts to get busy at 630am. People are leaving home early and getting home late. We are expected to pay toll fees, loadsa fees and stuck in line for ages to pay!!! Such a shame!! We are paying to be stuck in traffic, I'm especially sorry for those who live in Puchong, Cheras and PJ. Even the great government has been claiming that spending billions and billions on motor-way projects will gradually improve traffic situation. Hell Yeah!! BUT if you are getting sick of driving to work or school, please be prepared to spend extra hours waiting at stations if you're thinking of taking buses or trains from A to B or to C. Change your mind yet??!!

#3 Transportation

{Underground is just superb, you wouldn't need a car to go around London at all. Imagine to have a day-trip in Kuala Lumpur without a car??! I would rather stay home than to be frustrated!}

{12 lines of services, you'll never get lost! Remember to stand on the right side of escalator!! Me mostly travel with Circle line, District line, Piccadilly Line and Central line within zone 1 & 2}

{London-----}

{Transportation fares might be costly, but I'm paying without any complaint. If you know what i mean!}

{I know nothing much about Bristol yet...there's a large Urban Outfitters outlet, this is all matters.}

Things i spend money on #4

I remember I used to buy a lot of pop magazines when I was still in high school. I spent £1.29(RM12) every fortnight just to get a copy of Smash Hits, it happened all because of 911 (I'll blame it on RIM chart show. since then I couldn't get enough of English songs!) I was such a big fan but then I missed their showcase and concerts all the time! I wanna give Fei Wen a big hug for getting me the concert ticket even though I couldn't make it in the end! I still keep the ticket in my diary...thanx Fei!

then it was Westlife. I started to buy a lot of magazines, visit the official sites, joining different fan group on Yahoo!, stay tuned on MTV and Channel V all day, listened to the radio non-stop (speaking of which, I won plenty of Cd's and tickets from radio stations. the delivery man knows my place so well that he would just show up at my door without calling asking for direction. I was 14 the first time I ever won something. it was 911's showcase tickets and shame I was pretty weak by then my dad wont let me go, saying I might pass out or something that he didn't wanna see me taken out from the venue by paramedics on tv :S) and I started to have some pen pals from the UK. it was pretty lame I know but I was hoping I was actually writing to some of Kian's closest friends or so. mhaha...I was so young back then that's why!! since I was still a student it was quite a burden to post 5 letters a week to the UK but lucky me found a way to re-use the stamps over and over again!!! I would applied a thin layer of glue on top of the stamps and asked my pen pals send them back to me. soak them in the water for a while and wait. Voila!! the post stamp then would be gone!! I don't know if its illegal to do so...but this is what I called RECYCLE!!!

but it's so strange that I couldn't seem to find any Smash Hits here in Wales. OK! is one of the populars...but pop news nowadays means nothing much to me. I try not to miss a issue of Grand Design just to keep myself updated to the building design trend. I bought a few novels and have some sent from home. I'd just finished 九把刀《等一個人咖啡》...reminds me of my best friends.

I always wanna write more about times when I was 15...it has to be the most memorable year, when I met the most good friends, had the best times!!! 3CE, 1999...I miss you guys!!!!!

#4 Books & Magazines

{Lindsay and big boobs Jordan on cover all the time...make me sick!}

{GD...GDE...GRDES...Grand Design...}

{The book is a million times better than the movie, My Sister's Keeper. i got the Danielle Steel's at a charity market for only 50p!}

{They are some of the best I've ever had!...thanx dear!}

Things i spend money on #5

I spent my last week staying up late in front of my lappy watching TVB for hours and only head to bed at dusk - it just happen way too early now, at 4am! I wasn't taking care of my body - consequently it fell sick! I've been having really dry throat for days. It was sign but I couldn't be bothered to give it a rest. Next, running nose. Last but not least, mild fever!! (I know I wont miss it even though I've been drinking like a fish ever since I got sore throat).

I'm not talking crap yet! This is what I really wanna write about! Where has my money gone to???!! Yes! Spending money is so much fun!! I'm still a fan of writing on pieces of material. (Respect Mother Nature!!) No doubt e-cards are more versatile and environmentally friendly compared to traditional greeting cards. But I do believe nothing beats the feeling of reading a card - a piece of card, made outta paper which was sent from miles aways, with a post stamp on the envelope. No words could describe this feeling.

THiS is why I like spending on cards! I have never seen so many beautiful cards in my life! It got on my nerves whenever it came to choosing a nice greeting cards in Malaysia bcos there was hardly any...and I would spend so much time on picking a card which was only decent and average. BUT what happen here it's the other way round. I could spend like an hour in a card shop and still cant seem to decide which one to get cos most of them look so appealing to me!! It's harder than choosing between a denim or leather jacket!

#5 CARDS & POSTAGE

{No offence. You would never failed in spotting ugly cards here :s They are cheap, though}

{You can get some decent cards with just £1 from Card Factory}

{I haven't been to this yet...you could get most of the party accessories you need I guess}

{Clinton's is my favourite of all. It has got the most attractive cards ever!! i buy most of the cards from here though it cost me more. A single birthday balloon would cost £20.}

London my love...

Pontypridd

Little more time on this...

I'm gonna update my blog at least once every 2 days in this month of June. it has been over a year now and yet i noticed I'm not writing much enough about things I've seen and done, people I've met, places I've been to...what I'm eating, what am i doing, and the place where I'm staying. things I've never seen in Malaysia and things most people will miss about the UK!

to start, this was my breakfast!! Whaha...yes i know!! its about food again!!
I'm heading to London this coming Tuesday for a haircut. will post some pictures right after it...till then ciao~~

a star on my wrist